The phrase "Oh my God, I can't believe it's November" has come out of my mouth on a number of occasions lately. This year has gone quite fast in many ways, but on the flip side, I feel like I've lived 10 years in this one. So many things have changed for me, particularly on the job front (I've been in 4 different work places this year). I'm now at a job where I feel like I've finally landed where I am meant to be. The last place never felt like that for me. The whole time a feeling hung over me that I wasn't meant to be there, or at least stay for very long. I tried really hard to just go with it though and trust that the universe would take me where I needed to go (without me forcing the situation - especially when I had no clear idea of where I could or would go next). And I have now ended up in a place where I can see myself remaining for a while, where I feel I belong, where I have fun each day and where I feel like I am making a contribution (well, as much as I can when you are new to a role!).
I've had some massive dips this year. At the time they were extremely hard but on reflection they helped me learn more about myself and once again prove how strong I am as a person. I now have real confidence in regards to being on my own, and taking care of myself and Bailey. That doesn't mean that I have all the answers - not by a long shot - but I know with every bit of my heart that I put Bailey first and give everything I have in regards to being the best Mum for him that I can be. He can bring me to my knees at times (as I'm sure many mothers can relate!) but he is absolutely the greatest joy in my life. I am in awe of him most days - how much he knows and takes in, how funny he is, how gorgeous he is. Everything. He is just a miracle......
What definitely stands out to me about this year is my relationships with my female friends. Not only have I been fortunate enough to strengthen many of my already existing friendships, but have also had some beautiful, beautiful new friends enter my life. In particular, the universe has brought people to me who are like minded and who I can completely be myself with, and for that I am so grateful. It really has been my female friends who have helped me get through so many rough periods of the past year and a half - as well as provide the fun and connection that has helped me find my joy again. Not a day goes by where I don't ponder how lucky I am in that way.
So here's to making the most of what's left of 2011. I've got a feeling its going to involve quite a few Christmas parties and socialising - a great excuse to have some much needed fun. I am definitely going to start planning and manifesting what I want to bring into my life for 2012 though. I've had some amazing things come into my life in 2011, but it really did have an element of 'just survive it' and 'let it be' about it. I still had some stuff from the past to deal with and process and, as a result, it was a time of stillness and recharging. I want 2012 to be a year for me where I am taking charge and creating the life I want to be living.
Whatever you are doing in the last few months of 2011, I hope it is enjoyable and that you make the most of it. And bring on an amazing 2012 in the year beyond!
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