Thursday, June 14, 2012
The quote I posted yesterday in words of wisdom is ringing so true for me right now, that I couldn't not post it. Change and release and creating space for the new to come in is in the forefront of my mind. At times I fear space and I have a complicated relationship with it - I think I want it, but when I create it, my ego kicks in and I freak out about the lack of familiarity and start to doubt my ability to bring into the space the things I want. My mind starts to tell me that instead of giving me what I wanted I'm really just alone. And then I end up clinging to the things and people and ways of being that I was trying to move beyond in the first place. The key is waiting long enough and being patient enough to allow the new things to come in, when they are supposed to (which might not be the time at which you think you want them - therein lies my greatest challenge - reconciling the two).
It's all just about changing habits and creating new ways of thinking and reacting, which takes time and practice. So I'm being gentle with myself, arming myself with supporters and confidantes who will help me move through this phase until I get to where I want to be. As one of my wise friends pointed out, I'm well beyond the point of succumbing to fear. Instead of letting it take me down, I need to thank it for the motivation to keep moving in the opposite direction. That advice is gold, pure gold. I've let myself succumb to fear and doubt in the past and I am vowing not to do it this time. This time I'm doing everything I can to create the space, connect with my spirit, ground myself, set clear intentions, instigate meaningful action, and allow the universe to work its magic and work with me to create the next amazing phase of my life (as well as to enjoy where I am at now). This is a real test of how much I believe in myself and I don't want to let myself down or sell myself short this time.
And on that note, I'm going to take a break from the blog for a little while - I'm thinking for the rest of June. It was a hard decision to make, as my regular posting is something that keeps the creative side of me going and it's like my 'thing' to do each day. But, in light of what I'm working on, I feel I need the space for fresh ideas and creative inspiration to come in and it's sometimes hard to get that unless you remove yourself from what you already do. Never fear, however, 'cause I'll be back bigger and brighter and fresher than ever in July!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Monday, June 11, 2012
"Practicing authenticity can feel like a daunting choice - there's risk involved in putting your true self out into the world. But I believe there is even more risk in hiding yourself and your gifts. Our unexpressed ideas, opinions and contributions don't just go away. They are likely to fester and eat away at our own worthiness." Brene Brown.
I read this Brene Brown quote on a facebook post tonight and had to write about it, given my discussion last week on being in flow. That festering is absolutely what I experienced last year and have experienced so much throughout my life when I was denying my own truth. It can be a very hard, very daunting choice. Especially when you are plagued with self-doubt, or lack the courage you feel you need to put your true self out into the world. It can feel like a huge risk, one that is too big to take.
But I believe with all of my being that the risk to be ourselves is always, always worth it. Because it is the reason we are here. We are here to be our true selves. When you think about it, it seems utterly absurd that any of us would be placed on this earth to follow the crowd, or hide our gifts or deny what lies at the heart of us - our soul. We may have to go on a journey in order to find what lies at the heart of us or our authentic voice, and that authentic voice will change over time. It will feel daunting and there will be moments you will have to dig for every ounce of courage you have in order to remain authentic. It will often feel safer to stay in the known - the behaviours, the roles, the job, the relationship, the every day, even when you know it doesn't serve you. But when that choice is there to be made, make the choice to follow your authentic self. To not do so eventually catches up with you, as Brene explains, in the form of anxiety, rage, depression, addiction, blame, resentment and inexplicable grief. And I know first hand that existing in a life characterised by these emotions is not a life at all. And that is way more scary than any risk associated with shining your own light.
So shine on.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Friday, June 8, 2012
It's a long weekend in these parts this weekend. Yahoo!!! And the weather is getting to feel a whole lot more like winter. So I'd say a hot beverage like the one above will be in order over the next few days. Enjoy the weekend round-up!
Been listening to St Lucia all week
This editorial in Bullett Magazine, featuring Emily Browning, is amazingly beautiful
Happily Ever, After We Split (An interesting take on divorce)
Shout The Rainbow is my new happy place on the web : )
The Foggy Path. Tara Sophia Mohr knows right where I'm at and I'm embracing the fog.